Tuesday, July 31, 2007 ; 9:10:00 AM
Sometimes ,I really wonder if something is wrong with me.
Is my way of thinking totally different from other people ?
Or is this something that i cannot change ?
Sometimes on one hand,
I feel like doing it ,
But on the other hand,
I felt the opposite .
I really don't understand myself .
Am i still the YI LINGG that i used to be ?
It seems to me that i'm a totally changed person.
I am really confused.
I thought i will feel better after all the troubles i have .
But troubles just cannot stop coming.
I know.
This is part of life.
I cannot change it.
Neither can i do anything about it.
BUT
What about myself?
Sometimes ,
I know there's not much time left for me to really get focused.
& on the other hand,
I always got distracted and lost the concentration after that.
Is this the right thing to do ?
NO !
But i simply can't stop it...
How ?
Now ,
I find myself so unfamiliar.
I feel like a totally different person.
So,
Did i really change ?
Or is this just a split personality ?
I don't know.
I wonder.
Which is the REAL me ?
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Why ?
I know that's part of my responsibility.
If i were to put myself in other people's shoes,
I may think that i am an irresponsible person
& i've never thought of the consequences before.
But if i were to think of it in my own perspective,
It will be different .
I will think that,
This is definitely the wrong choice.
I certainly regretted doing that.
I should not have chosen that path.
Think again.
If i have to put myself in everyone's shoes to find out
What can i do to make myself a responsible person,
I would EXPLODE one day.
Agree ?
But since i was forced to walk down THIS road,
I have to take responsibility for everything i do.
No matter i like it or not.
In life,
Do you even have a choice?
Choose what you want to do while you still can.
Time will not wait for you.
When it is over,
It will not give any second chances anymore.
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I wonder.
Why do i always do things that
Will make me regret ?
What's wrong with me ?
I really don't know !
How ?
History keeps repeating itself.
Why can't anyone prevent it ?
Why is it like that ?
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Just rememeber this .
" If you are focused and determined to achieve you aim,
You will very often succeed. "
Am i able to do that ?
No one knows .
&YI `LINGG♥